Saturday 28 November 2015

Middle Fell

Approaching Wastwater along the single track road brings to mind so many happy memories which gather into a feeling of deep calm. Hidden by the woods until the last possible minute, it’s the occasional glimpse of the screes flashing between the trees that sets the heart racing. Over the cattle grid and out of the woods and the full brilliance of Wasdale appears like a sudden advert.  Its stillness seems odd for a second as you adjust to the scene, trying to take in sky, lake and mountain all at once.

This morning was different. It was just before dawn and I was weaving down the dark lane alone, dreamily following my headlights, jaded and tired from last night’s beers in the Bridge Inn. I had to stop on the cattle grid to move some sleeping sheep guarding the valley. The air was cold and my eyes rolled heavily along the dark outlines of Wasdale’s famous peaks. The lake was obvious, but only as an absence of texture, nothing shone on it yet.

I set out jogging along the grassy approach to Middle Fell, following the artificially-bright green created by my headtorch. I got onto the steeper slopes and allowed myself to break rhythm into a walk earlier than usual. The sun was softening the black sky into a navy blue above the Scafells who quickly disappeared as I contoured north of the bulk of Middle Fell’s crags. I remembered again too late that I must start doing dawn outings on eastern flanks, my pace quickened in eagerness to summit Middle Fell in time for a sunrise.

A warm wind was blowing softly across the fellside; I wondered if the heat had been trapped in the bracken overnight but soon realised that the rocks were radiating yesterday’s heat out into the icy cold morning. It made me feel a bit sick, so I slowed again.

I finally reached the summit, and had out-run (misjudged) the sunrise, leaving me a good 30 minutes to sit and wait at the foot of the cairn. I was looking directly across at the Scafells with a view of Wastwater below. I’d had the headtorch off for about ten minutes and the day was shifting through its shades of grey. I noticed the pippets wake up, all bursting into life and song around the same time. The Coniston fells to the west started to glow, a sun patch broke on top of Seatallen, clouds became pink.


Sunrise behind the Scafells, Coniston fells in the distance on the right

I didn’t have time to wait for the sun to get over the Scafell range and bathe Middle Fell; I was due back for breakfast by 8 so set off allowing 15 minutes descent to Wasdale and a 10 minute drive back to the Bridge Inn. I felt some regret but a smile started to break out as I warmed into a quick rhythm down the easy grassy paths off the summit.

The gradient steepened and my senses came to life, quick steps and wide eyes as the freedom and joy embraced me descending over the more technical terrain. The ground was just moist enough to take a stud, but not so wet to render them useless, trusting in this I moved confidently and could take the odd glance over at the screes, still grey with sleep, protected from the rising sun by Scafell.

I became aware with one glance of a car parked near mine, the second glance identified three figures stood by it, the third confirmed they were watching me. I wondered if I’d maybe parked on their land, having thought I was up early enough to just pull onto the well grazed grass at the side of the road. I got  a little nervous and  rehearsed a disarming apology in my mind. People often watch you when running in the fells and comment that they are impressed. I quickened my step, thinking I might impress them more. Or at least show some urgency to the farmers.

I was soon back on the grassy approach and I pushed on, needing to use my legs again to increase speed, not slow it. As I approached the Hilux two collies circled me and I stroked them as they weaved. I looked up, conscious I was again greeting dogs in advance of their owners. I couldn’t really tell you what the other two men looked like, the unmistakable leant frame of the tallest of them had shocked me into exclamation: “Bloody hell, Joss!”.

I’m not sure what he said in return, but it was friendly and un-assuming and I felt straight away at ease and slightly embarrassed by my greeting. He is an unbelievable person. Joss Naylor's achievements in the fells are overwhelming, yet - as with many in the fell running community - secondary, a by-product of a deep passion and love for the hills themselves.

Straight away we talked about the beauty of where we were. Joss told me, with a child-like enthusiasm, about a sunrise he once saw on Scafell and then went on to imagine the way the Coniston fells must have looked this morning from my seat on Middle Fell.

His distinctive lean from the waist made me think of trees that have spent lifetimes leaning into the wind, his hand shook slightly on his stick. As you grow up you realise that passion doesn’t age and Joss inspired me, standing there in his valley, taking the time out to watch a runner descend one of his most familiar fells. He was genuinely interested in my run, “How long’d it tek you to get up and down there then?”. My answer was garbled and embarrassed. His questioning wasn’t boastful, he wasn’t seeking the return question, like so many with a great marathon PB do, burning to get it off their chest. He wanted to know my time to complete the picture, the scene he had stopped to watch.

A few weeks before, I’d read his account of running all 214 Wainwrights in 7 days, whilst spending a week in Eskdale. It was a beautifully worded and honest account of a week that saw him overcome a heat-wave, which  anybody who’s walked in the lakes during high summer will sympathise with. The heat sits, building all day in the humid  valleys, and the sun is inescapable on the top and ridges. He finished the book with the following words, which I think sum up the character of a man that is deeply entrenched in his athletic endeavours:

‘We had to drag from ourselves not only accumulated fitness and basic strength…we had to reach even deeper into ourselves when natural physical abilities had been drained, deeper than I had ever had to reach even in the most serious mountain conditions. I just do not have the words to describe the  discomfort, the physical pain, the frustration, and worry we all had to suffer…I’m not a great one for words, it’s been difficult to get this down on paper. To find the words to express my gratitude to those who took part is beyond me. Those who know me well will sense what I want to say; I don’t show my feelings but I do feel things deep inside me; I’m a man for doing, not saying. Others might one day put polish on this story, but one thing I can say with certainty is it will be a lucky man who is able to make the bonds of friendship that have been my good luck…Happy days.’

In Richard Askwith’s book Feet in the Clouds, I think he sums Joss’s achievements up completely when he says that nobody in the history of sport has conquered themselves so completely. When you read about his life st

ory, one of constant physical pain and discomfort, and hold his achievements up against it, you can’t help but feel inspired and humbled.

Joss offered Richard the following advice in an interview: ‘You’ve got to be able to switch off, if you thought about it you’d lie down’. This understatement is what makes him such a compelling character, I’d just huffed and puffed up and down Middle Fell, yet during our conversation he managed to say “Aye, it’s easy on the legs is Middle Fell, a nice one to do”. In a world of social media fuelled Tough Mudder events, and city marathon hysterics, Joss stands tall, a man who prefers to do, rather than say.



 






Update

Its been a while since I last wrote about the fells, during this gap we've spent more time than ever in them and grown to rely on them in ways we never imagined we might. last year, we dealt with Ali's cancer, and the hills were our only real constant. I remember us climbing Ingleborough deep into Ali's chemotherapy treatment, icy cold with winter. Ali's resolve that day was nothing short of heroic. After treatment we enjoyed a wonderful summer of countless trips over to the Lakes as I worked reduced hours.

I hope to keep this blog going now, particularly during these winter months in exile, with work looming again full time.